Excluded

I'm feeling so excluded today.

Some of my closest friends are together in Tennessee in a cabin having an awesome time. Facebook is blowing up with posts of pics and videos showing how much fun they're having.

This morning was one the first little competition between people who I lift with. I had to miss it and missed a friend PR her clean & jerk! It would've been sooo awesome to see!

No CrossFit team WOD this morning b/c the little one has dance rehearsal. (And her dance "recital" is tonight.)

The husband was in Boston at a conference. Granted, this situation is a little different... He left early from the conference to see his father who is really, really sick.

Here I am at home with the kids. The older one is fighting off some bug and is cranky. The little one is bouncing off the walls because she's just crazy.

Yesterday I got the lucky task of telling the kids that their grandfather is dying. That was fun. And continues to be a blast with random questions being asked here and there. And not easy ones either. My son took the conversation in a totally different direction than I was expecting and began asking about my biological father (who passed away 2 years ago).

It was a tough day yesterday. And today doesn't seem like it'll be much different. The weather is supposed to get bad and I'm scared. After the whole swimming/not being able to breathe thing, my next fear is tornadoes. Silly? Maybe. But I'm scared. And I have to not be scared for the kids. (I haven't even told them yet b/c after telling them yesterday about their grandfather, I don't think they needed to deal with it.)

I'm just ready for this weekend to be over.