Pardon my language, but this is just fucking bullshit. I may still feel teary and may not feel back to my normal self for a few weeks, but these feelings are complete bullshit and go against everything I tell people they should be.
I registered for the fundraiser. I may suck, but I'm doing it. Do I want to right now? No. But deep down I really do. Plus, it's for a good cause.
I hope I feel better sooner rather than later. I don't like being like this. In the meantime, I'm going to try my damnedest to fight through it. There will be more tears (there are as I'm writing this). But that's ok. I'll come out ok. I'll come out more than ok. It's a shame I need medication to feel like a normal human being, but it's not the end of the world. (Right now I'm thankful that I take 2 because I think the other one is what's keeping me afloat.)
I appreciate all the words of encouragement from so many. Especially those who know that this really isn't me. It's appreciated much more than you realize.
