Huge mistake to eat a brownie (or 2) before working out. I have no idea what I was thinking. So not worth it. Ugh.
Friday, January 27, 2012
Picture Overload
I hate my arms. I also hate my stomach, but at least that is covered. My arms though... YUCK. I prefer to workout in sleeveless shirts, which poses a bit of a problem with my icky, stretch marked, distracting arms.
Interestingly, I was looking through some pictures yesterday and came across one where my arms looked skinny... Well, skinny with lots of extra skin!! Yuck! (No wonder the one instructor in TX kept telling me I need to eat more protein!!)
(How cute are my little Woody and Jessie?!?)
I realized that though my arms are definitely not skinny now, and definitely still have chub and skin, at least they've got some muscle going on under there. I don't have a pic to show, but it's there.
In other pics from that time, I have an unmistakable light in my eyes. (Not in that pic because we were BEAT!) I don't know where it went. It must've run off with my confidence at some point. I need to find both again because it was nice!!
I also found this picture the other day. It was taken in January 2003.
EEK! Huge difference between then and now!! There was definitely no light in my eyes there.
It's interesting how perspective plays such a huge role in how you feel about yourself. With skinny, extra skin arms, I felt so much more confident than I do now because I felt thin. I was only 15lbs lighter than I am now (if that) and obviously not in as good of shape as I am now.
As I'm sitting here writing this, I realize how that makes absolutely NO sense at all. I should be more comfortable with how I look now than with those skinny, skin arms. I'm slowly coming around. It's hard to adjust your thinking sometimes. Especially when society beats into our heads that skinny is the best. (Oh lord, did I really just blame "society"!?) Of course, growing up it was also beat into my head that skinny was better. But that's for another time.
Not that it should really matter, but I've lost 10lbs. The last documented weight was at the beginning of December, though I know it went up over the holidays. I was just never able get the courage to write it down!
I do, however, have pics from just after I started CF and now. I should've known better than to wear a regular t-shirt for the first pic, but too late now.
Interestingly, I was looking through some pictures yesterday and came across one where my arms looked skinny... Well, skinny with lots of extra skin!! Yuck! (No wonder the one instructor in TX kept telling me I need to eat more protein!!)
(How cute are my little Woody and Jessie?!?)
I realized that though my arms are definitely not skinny now, and definitely still have chub and skin, at least they've got some muscle going on under there. I don't have a pic to show, but it's there.
In other pics from that time, I have an unmistakable light in my eyes. (Not in that pic because we were BEAT!) I don't know where it went. It must've run off with my confidence at some point. I need to find both again because it was nice!!
I also found this picture the other day. It was taken in January 2003.
EEK! Huge difference between then and now!! There was definitely no light in my eyes there.
It's interesting how perspective plays such a huge role in how you feel about yourself. With skinny, extra skin arms, I felt so much more confident than I do now because I felt thin. I was only 15lbs lighter than I am now (if that) and obviously not in as good of shape as I am now.
As I'm sitting here writing this, I realize how that makes absolutely NO sense at all. I should be more comfortable with how I look now than with those skinny, skin arms. I'm slowly coming around. It's hard to adjust your thinking sometimes. Especially when society beats into our heads that skinny is the best. (Oh lord, did I really just blame "society"!?) Of course, growing up it was also beat into my head that skinny was better. But that's for another time.
Not that it should really matter, but I've lost 10lbs. The last documented weight was at the beginning of December, though I know it went up over the holidays. I was just never able get the courage to write it down!
I do, however, have pics from just after I started CF and now. I should've known better than to wear a regular t-shirt for the first pic, but too late now.
Sept. 2011
Jan. 2012
I'm a dork. Forgive me, please.
On a positive note... That extra skin makes me look like I have huge muscles in that last pic!
I see a slight difference, I think. I don't know though. It's hard to tell because of the t-shirt. Oh well.
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