I am not a patient person when it comes to improving myself. For the most part, I'm pretty patient with other people (including my crazy kids). But when it comes to myself... forget it. I expect things to come easily to me and when they don't, I get frustrated. I have absolutely NO basis to think that about exercise, but I do for some reason. Fortunately, I have some (one particularly) super awesome people (person) in my life to help me not get discouraged. Or to talk me down when I do.
The problem is that I don't just want to be better, I want to be GOOD. I can handle for not great since that's not even possible. But I'd like to be decent. I like being good at things. What's the point in doing something if you're not even good at it?? I've been doing CrossFit for 5 months now and I'm not really sure how close I am to being decent. Not close, for sure.
Yesterday I was ready to quit. I had a blog post up (and quickly deleted) and an email composed to my CF coach. I deleted that, too, but confessed to her later what was going on. (Insert peptalk.)
I'm not really ready to give up, I guess. I've come a long way in 5 months. So while I may not be good, I'm improving still and that counts for something.
I was told once that people tend to peak at about 6mo into CrossFit and that's kind of haunted me.. but logically, if I keep working at it, I could be an exception to that. I like being the exception.
