Stuck in My Head

Self Discovery

I don't know how to link these two topics together, so there will be a Part A and Part B. I could just wait to write about one or the other, but I don't want to. And two separate posts seems silly. 

Part A - Paleo Update

One reason I started the whole Paleo thing was to learn about how my body reacts to different foods, right? Well I've learned a couple of things I didn't expect to find out. 

- I have a "sensitivity" to peanuts. I'll spare you the details. But unless that particular batch of peanuts had some nasty germs or something in them, I think it's safe to say it's a sensitivity. The hubby and kids ate them with no problems, so I'm assuming they were fine. My body revolted. 

- I think I have a sensitivity to shrimp, too... A few years ago I discovered that I am allergic to lobster. I break out into a rash and itch like a mother f-er. Everyone has asked if I'm allergic to shrimp. Until now, I've never had a problem. Growing up by the Gulf, shrimp was always around. Yum! But this week.. Lord. My entire body itches. I thought maybe it was dry skin, but I've slathered lotion and it doesn't help. I told the hubby about it and immediately he suggested the shrimp I'd eaten. Nothing else I'd eaten that day or the day before could've been the culprit. And the rash looks just like the one I get with lobster. So.. I'm assuming it was the shrimp. Goody. 

- I don't crave non Paleo foods as much as I expected I would. Basically, if it's yummy, I'm good! I'd been off of pasta for a couple of years anyway, so that was no biggie. Potatoes, too. I think those would've been the hardest for me. I will admit that I eat popcorn. Besides chocolate, it's about the only cheat I think I have. Oh. Diet sodas. Lord, I love Diet Coke. And Diet Dr. Pepper. It's addicting. I'm trying hard to stay away, but the extra caffeine jolt around noon is soooo nice when I've been awake since 4:30. Maybe I can try going back to coffee. 

Part B - What Made Me Say That??

Periodically, I find myself in a position where I ask myself, "OMG. WHY did I tell ____ all of that?!?" It's always to a person I really like and am in the process of getting to know. So while I was lying (laying?) in bed at 4am (thanks to the little one wanting  milk), I was thinking about it. 

When I was growing up, I was told not to ask people personal questions. I was told that it was rude and I shouldn't be nosy. After meeting my friend Deb a few years ago, I realized how untrue that is! I like when people as me questions.. And people like when they are asked about themselves--usually. Deb has this amazing ability to make people feel special and part of that is that she is truly interested in getting to know people. She's awesome in so many ways, but that's a major one. 

I try to ask people questions, but feel very awkward. I hear my grandmother's voice telling me to not be so rude and I'm not able to ask more than a little of what I want to know. So to make up for that, I tell people something about me. It's not a very effective tool. I end up telling people too much or telling them something they don't want to know about me or whatever, when really all I'm trying to do is open a door for them to tell me something about them. I seriously lack social skills sometimes. So if you're reading this, know that I'm not trying to talk about myself all the time. Know that I'm sharing something with you so that you'll share something with me. And when I ask a question and it seems trite, it's because I don't want to be too nosy. In reality, I'm dying to get to know you better!

Part C - Bonus!

I thoroughly enjoyed my workout today. Not that it was easy by any means! But I had fun(ish)! As much fun as you can have when getting your ass handed to you, but it was so nice to have that feeling again!! I wasn't the fastest. I wasn't the slowest. I didn't lift the most. I didn't lift the least. Honestly, I don't even remember what other people did. I just know I did my best and focused on doing well. 

Today I'm going to practice some more at home. It's been forever since I've done that (minus yesterday). I'm still going to be too hard on myself. And I'm still going to suck at things. But it's nice to want to do better again! Go me!