My body is tired from working out. I cannot take a break right now for the sake of my mind.
I'd like to break down and start counseling, but that seems unlikely to happen given that we live in a tiny town and no one seems to have openings. Maybe my medications aren't working as well as I thought. It seems like my moods cycle so much. Maybe I'm bipolar. I KID!! Actually, I think a lot of it is that I need better coping skills. Once upon a time, I just turned to food. I've found myself doing that for the last few days and I CANNOT go down that road again!! Drinking isn't an option. Nor is smoking. Looks like I just need to learn not to be such a whiny brat who takes everything so personally.
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A couple times lately I've been asked to help people with their own weightloss/workout issues and it's so hard! Things they're saying to me I've thought to myself and feel like a hypocrite for saying to them what I should be saying to myself. But! On the positive side, it's nice to know that I'm not alone.. And perhaps that by having to give peptalks it helps me as well. (It actually already has. Crazy. That positive bullshit stuff works. Shhhh...)
This afternoon I plan to take progress pictures and hope to God that they show an improvement in the way my body looks. I know it's not all about looks, but it does help to feel like you look better.
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