Frustrated and Discouraged

Well, here we go again. I guess it's about time for a whiny post about how badly I suck.

Today there was an Olympic Weightlifting Seminar at CFMK and I went. If it's one thing I've learned already about the snatch and clean & jerk (go ahead.. I know you want to snicker) it's that repeated practice (in good form) is the key. I was doing ok with the snatches. Not great, but ok. After an hour and a half of that, it was time for the clean & jerks. On a good day, I struggle with the clean so after being tired of doing snatches, I got discouraged quickly. And the jerk. UGH. My shoulder has been bothering me, so I was really hesitant when I did them. All in all, I guess the practice was good, but I feel like I didn't do well at all. Plus, I felt like since I've been working with the other coach, everyone there was watching me differently when it was my turn.

I wonder if I will ever believe that I'm an "athlete" or whatever. If you make me miss a day of exercise, I go crazy. I do CrossFit and have started the weightlifting. Yet, I don't think I'm even close to athlete status... I actually think I'm pretty lazy about it and that I'm just a normal person who exercises (if that). In fact, this is one of my absolute favorite t-shirts (which I actually wore today):

Isn't that friggin awesome?? I love it! Of course, in my case it's my old fat self chasing my new self. But whatever.

Speaking of my old fat self... So these weightlifting competitions require a weigh in. I totally understand it. BUT REALLY?!? I don't want to fucking get on a scale in front of someone!!! It's hard enough for me to look at my scale at home because it's so disappointing. But to have to do it in front of someone else?? It's enough to make a fat girl cry!!!

Blah.