Jinxing Myself?

I hate posting that I'm doing well with something in fear of those words coming to bite me in the ass. Even if I THINK that I'm doing well, it's been known to happen!

This week, for example. Yesterday morning I had a great workout. I was able to do things better than I had been and it left me feeling super confident. Yesterday evening I went back to the gym. Now, I've been going back in the evenings to work on things since I'm having a hard time with some of the moves clicking. I want to be able to do them right and I want to be able to do them well. And when I can't, it pisses me off. So they're redoing the initial classes you have to take when starting CrossFit and I've been going again in hopes of having things click. Well yesterday, they STILL weren't clicking. I get the concept, but I can't seem to get my body and my mind to work together and do what I'm supposed to!

I left feeling rather defeated, which pissed me off, of course. I went in for Open Gym today and was able to do box jumps that have been taunting me for months!! About an hour after I left, I was all, "HEY! I just did it!! Like, I really did it!!" (Yes, I'm kinda dense sometimes.) Now I just hope that I can continue to do them... I seem to get stuck on them a lot.

On another positive note, I've had several people tell me within the last few days that it looks like I've lost weight. The scale has FINALLY started to go down (after I've changed my eating, of course... which absolutely blows). I'm just ready for my clothes to start fitting better!

I wonder sometimes if I still want to have plastic surgery. My arms and my stomach still REALLY bother me. But since I've started CrossFit, I've been feeling that urge less and less... I don't know what it is exactly. I'm still super self conscious. But I don't necessarily feel that I need to have it done to be confident with myself.

Today is coming to an end and I'm eager to get back to the box tomorrow morning. For a few years now, I've actually looked forward to working out instead of dreading it. But the difference now is that not only do I enjoy what I'm doing, but I'm getting better at things. Sure, I could move a little better in Zumba (err.. a LOT better!) but that's still not a solid skill. Whereas with CrossFit, the things we do are skills that you can measure. Before the only thing I was able to measure was the scale!

I could write a long ass post about why I am so happy that I joined CrossFit, but that will have to wait (mainly because one of the coaches has the link to this blog! Hi, Megan!) No need to get all super mushy and shit! But one day I will write all about the different things that CrossFit (and the coaches there) have taught me in only a few months. And it goes far beyond box jumps and pull ups!