Surprising

I hate that I see myself as being extremely overweight.

I just saw a picture of myself from this past weekend (actually, I was in the background of a video). It's apparent that I could lose some weight.. and that I've got a lot of chub and skin going on in the stomach area. But I don't look like I'm unfit or obese. In fact, I was surprised at how fit I look. Not like superstar fit... but for me, not so shabby, despite my weight gain.

The last is horrible. Alas.. it's reality.

Too Close To Home

I realize that I've been writing less and less lately. It's not that I don't have anything on my mind or anything to say. In fact, I have a lot on my mind and a lot to sday. But I guess I feel that too many people in my day to day life know about this blog and it makes me uneasy.

It's one thing to write how you feel and know people are reading. It's quite another to write how you feel and look someone in the eyes the next day!!