another update

since my last post 3 weeks ago, i'm down 2lbs. at least, i was last week... this weekend when i weighed (different day, different circumstances, etc.), i was the same. all in all, i'm only up 5 or 6lbs, but i feel so chubby lately and i can tell my clothes are really fitting differently. (with only 5lbs?!?!!? WTF??)

tomorrow i will start back to seriously paying attention to my calories and i'll start keeping a food journal again. yay.

i also haven't been as diligent about working out as i used to. fortunately i'll be starting a regular routine w/ a personal trainer soon. having someone to be accountable to will help a lot... i still get 3-4 two hour sessions per week, but i still have too many days off. one reason my clothes are fitting differently too is b/c of all the weights i've been doing. serious ab work a few times a week is making the belly push out a bit. but once some of that flab goes away, it'll be better.

i've decided that i'd like to lose another 15-20lbs, which will put me around 100lbs lost. so i guess i need to change my ticker.

i know a lot of you think that since i've lost so much already that my body looks ok... if i could be daring and post pics of my bare belly, you'd totally understand where i'm coming from. better? yes. good? no.

so anyway... that's where i am.

keeping it real...

ok, so y'all have been with me on this weight loss journey, so i feel the need to be completely honest and let y'all see all sides of it. i know some people think it's easy to maintain, but i can assure you that it's not.

i've gained weight. i'll admit that with moving and going away dinners and stuff, i've eaten poorly. And since getting to Texas, I haven't exercised like I should. i finally joined a gym after testing out several in the area. i really like it and i'm eager to get back into a routine.

i've been getting back to eating better, but it's been hard. food is so yummy!! i really need to go back to my once a week splurge meal and that's it.

Tomorrow i have an assessment w/ a personal trainer to do measurements and stuff. he'll do some tests to see where i am fitness-wise. this will be my new baseline, though i did measurements before i left FL. (I've lost TEN inches from my abs since October of last year!!)

so anyway... that's where i am.

90lbs and I think I'm done...

I reached 90lbs last week. rather, 90lbs lost. I do not weigh 90lbs. ;-)

I think i'm finished trying to lose weight. I think.

Anyway, here's a cute pic that the kids and I took for A for Father's Day.

What 83lbs lost looks like!

For some reason, this post is REALLY hard for me to write.

I've exceeded my goal and have new pictures to share. The first set is just the typical progress pics from along the way. Then are the before/after pics from everyday life.

I'm very self conscious about the way I look now. I have a lot of excess skin. I have deep creases in my face b/c of the weight loss. I feel like I look 10 years older than I am.

I still see lots of room for improvement and will probably continue to try to lose weight, but not as aggressively.

(be sure to click on the pics to see the whole thing)






The 'before' taken almost exactly a year ago when we were in Tijuana (which is why I look so icky and sweaty... it was HOT!) The 'after' was this past weekend.






I bought myself a little present for reaching my goal... It's the necklace you see in the pics. I had it made and I'll wear it each day as a reminder of where I once was.

one pound BELOW my goal weight!!

That pretty much sums it up!!!

I'll be updating next week with pictures!

Single digits!!

I have EIGHT pounds to go until I reach my goal! EIGHT!!!

I'm fairly certain that I'm going to want to lose more weight, but I'll decide once I hit my goal. It's not just the number that makes me want to lose more, but I truly believe there's more to be lost.

anyway, it's pretty exciting to me... i'm down 74lbs now... i can't believe i was able to do this!

having a rough time

the last week, i've had a hard time with eating right. this weekend was especially bad since we were out of town.

i wouldn't say that this whole weightloss journey has been easy by any means, but this last week has proven to be exceptionally hard.

i guess there's always tomorrow... get back on track and keep heading toward my goal. only 11lbs more to go. and once i'm there, i know i can treat myself to one meal a week of anything i want and not feel guilty.

i just don't know why it's so hard NOW.

70lbs down!

Guess that sums it up! I have 12lbs more until I reach my goal! Woo hoooo!!!

Awesome compliment!

My uncle came to visit this weekend. I'm used to people commenting about my weight loss as soon as they see me. He never said anything and I'll admit that I was a little bummed.

After the kids were in bed, A and I were chatting w/ him and the topic of the gym came up. My uncle said to me, "You sound so much stronger now. Not just that your voice sounds stronger... You just sound [I]stronger[/I]."

I can't even begin to say how much that meant. Because most of the time, people only acknowledge the physical change in me and rarely comment on the mental aspect of it all.

16lbs to go!

I have 16lbs to lose until I reach my goal weight. In all honesty, I know I've come a LONG way, but seriously.. I'm going to need more than 16lbs more to be gone.

Though a lot of people may not understand... I fully plan to have some serious surgery next year (summer 2010). My boobs look like they belong to a 70 year old woman. If I had to have a mammogram right now, there would be NO problem with it being uncomfortable. I kid you not. It's sad. I also plan to have a few imperfections smoothed out. At that point, I figure I'll have busted my ass enough to warrant having it done. While I have no delusions about having a perfect body, it would be nice for it not to jiggle so much. (And oh my!! The jiggling has gotten waaaaay worse!! Damn skin just hanging around. YUCK!)

BUT. I kick ass, so whatever. ;)


Oh.. And a new pic in "real" clothes!

Time for a new post and new pics!

Well, I'm down over 60lbs now!! I have 20lbs to go until I reach my goal. I seriously can't believe it. I never would've thought I had it in me.

(click on the pics to see the most recent shot)

50lbs!!!!

I was too chicken to weigh yesterday so I waited until this morning. I'm officially down 50 pounds. FIFTY!!

(No, that's not the goal I was talking about in my last post. Twelve more pounds to go for that.)

I love stepping on the scale

Wait.. Did I just say that???

But yeah... I really have been enjoying my weigh-ins each week. I know it sounds crazy, but I love seeing that scale go down.

Not much longer until my next reward... only 15lbs to go! Still can't bring myself to post what number that'll actually bring me down to. But maybe once I'm there I'll be able to. Who knows.

I still have 35lbs to go to get to my big goal. It sounds so daunting when I say it like that. So I'm going to ignore it for now and work toward the 15lb goal!